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Seeing I to I
I've been asked to continue my little Eye of the Beholder
column for Versorger - my impressions, this time, being
of Linz in late March, early April 1998. To be honest, I
have not spent much time in Stadtwerkstatt on this visit
to justify the presentation of any meaningful consideration
of the place though I immediately noticed that there are
more computers around. Instead of living under the
Stadtwerkstatt kitchen table, as happened in the past,
I am housed in a little student room in the refurbished
Öffenes Kulturhaus which is more private and where I
have my own little shower hidden away from public view.
The disadvantage of course is that I cannot spy on other
people's lives in Stadtwerkstatt or pick up on current gossip.
Is it me or is Stadtwerkstatt becoming less radical,
more conventional and generally more of a well oiled
cog within the wheel of the greater establishment? Maybe
I'm just getting used to the place. The younger generation
is gaining a foothold: Gabi and Bert seem more at the helm,
more in control than Georg or Thomas. Marc is, of course,
well married with a family and a second baby on the way.
On the odd occasion when there has been some English floating
around there have been a couple of conversations around sexual
ethics. I talk about a complicated affair I am having at home:
an obsession mixed with a third-party jealous lover, people in
emotional cages and rages, violent physical and pschological
attacks, trendy prozac, tranquilisers and therapists
(I'm selling the filmrights if anyone wants the story).
The object of my affections lives in social and economic
circumstances markedly different from mine.
"Typical of gay relationships!" Gabi and Bert retort to
which I respond pompously with words to the effect of "yours
is heterosexist thinking." But these are not politically
correct people so they just go "bleah bleah, whatever" and
return promptly to furious typing to keep pace with conversations
on their internet chatlines.
I've just finished a book on sexual ethics called "Doing Least
Harm" which says people should establish relationships with their
peers and with people of a similar economic status. I told Gabi I
am paying the educational fees for the object of my obsession.
She told me you should never buy people. Maybe that has something
to do with why I was beaten up the jealous lover. There seems no
other logical reason why I should have been attacked.
After my conversation with Gabi, a young women, whom I know very
well, comes in to Stadtwerkstatt and says that her boyfriend from
Mozambique is coming to Austria to study! They have been going
steady for some years now. Where's the difference Gabi?
Bert and I are in Stonewall the other day. Bert sees a same-sex
couple (men of course), one older and one much younger, sitting
behind me. He comes to the conclusion that their relationship
is based on economic factors and not on love. Maybe he judged
right; maybe not. But how many people manage to get love for
nothing in this world? Husbands are generally older, have the
education and the money; wives are generally younger and are
paid to do the housework, cook and look after the kids. But
that is perfectly OK in heterosexual circles in what is termed
the nuclear family and it is a style of behaviour that patriarchy
encourages; when it happens between two men of differing ages,
its called buying affection and cradle snatching.
I didn't see him but Bert thought the older man in Stonewall
looked fascist. Was he wearing a Hitler moustache or was it something
about the mop of his haircut? Remember the old science of Victorian
times where scholars studied the faces of serial murderers and other
hardline crimminals looking for common features that would help police
with their enquiries and ensure the swift incaceration of these
devlish-looking individuals! Remember, too, the article in that
major newspaper in the fifties or sixties claiming that the
brains of blacks were physically smaller than those of whites!
It was Gabi's birthday on 19th. Happy Birthday Gabi. Ta ta for
the sparkling wine. I must say, I feel less of a special visitor
these days around here and more of a general popper-inerer. My
birthday occured just after I arrived (on March 13th for anyone
who wishes to give me presents in the future) and the Kuthans threw
a splendid party with wonderful food and lots to drink and numerous
Austrian friends I have collected over the years. Having just
returned from New York I was totally jet lagged and puzzled why
everyone seemed to be leaving so early. Finally, I was thrown
into a taxi at four in the morning and told to go home to bed.
Talking of age, I first came to Vienna when I was fifteen and I
remember eagerly scouring the programmes of the Konzerthaus looking
for anything that might pass for modern music. Just seeing the words
Stravinsky and Bartok filled me with exquisite anticipation. I am
sure I heard Webern's symphony in the Schoenberg Saal of the Konzerthaus.
I never dreamed that twenty three yeas later a piece of mine would
be performed in the same room. But I didn't know that my first
recorded work would be published on CD and that there was somethinbg
called electroacoustic music that could be produced on a computer
and, surprisingly enough, at that stage I had never even heard of
the Tonga.
The concert brought back another strong reminder from the past:
an old school friend from Zimbabwe suddenly appeared before me
after twenty years and expected me to remember her name. The
last time we had seen each other was when we were riding home
from school sometime in 1978. I understand that her parents
still live around the block from where I stay in Harare.
The Tonga project sems to have taken on a life of its own.
Perhaps it is time to put the Six Reflections to sleep and
move on. KUNZWANA is developing a community tourist project
with the Tonga of Siachilaba which, with everything round here,
is a controversial issue. The Tonga Simonga CD is in the works
and there are endless discussions about what should go on it and
how it should be produced. I supose this is more the Stadtwerkstatt
that I love and know.
I've decided not to come back here until Austrians can sort out
their weather problems: it is definitely too cold here. And its
useless telling me during a Viennese snowstorm on the first day
of Spring that it was unduly warm in February, I was in sunny
Zimbabwe at that time and unconcerned about the abnormalities of northern climates.
To: gabi@servus.at
From: Keith Goddard
Subject: An I for an I
Date: Wed, 25 Mar 1998 19:47:38 +0100
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